Nelson Alexandre

This is the story of my so precious unborn angel,Nelson.My pregnancy was in fact unexpected,but i was very happy to be carrying a baby boy.The pregnancy was fine,without problems.But when i reached the 7th month of pregnancy,my baby died inside of me.
That is a night i will remember forever.this was soon after dinner.It was 8.30 pm...i started to feel a very sharp pain in my abdomen.I tough it could be premature labour...But pain was unbearable,so i was taken to hospital.Once i arrived in there,i was treated horribly bad.Doctors didn`t know what was happening and they still accused me of taking drugs to kill my son.But i never touched any drug,all my life,and i would never ever do such thing.Nurses then induced labour,breaking the waters manually,but that didn`t work,and it was very painful,as they were stinging me in the wrong place inside!With my waters broken,i was told to wait.Pain was killing me,but no one did anything.i was sick all night,as well...but no one could be bothered.I was feeling my baby kicking me desperately.He was stressed.I called a nurse,but she said it was normal!Next morning,still screaming in pain,i was taken to to have a scan.That was the moment when they told me that my baby was dead.No heartbeat.I couldn`t believe it!Why did they make me wait for so long with my waters broken?!Why didn`t they perform a c-section right away?!my problem,was internal bleeding of the placenta.I was taken to the theather,for them to remove my baby.But,i lost so much blood,that i almost died myself.I have been put on the intensive care unit,with ventilators,during 2 weeks.No one thought i could survive.But i did.I did survive just to cry my baby`s death,and suffer even more.My little angel Nelson didn`t even see daylight...Those who still saw him,said he was a perfect and gorgeous baby.I couldn`t say goodbye to him as i was in the ICU...So,i never got to see him.Today,i have 2 more children,Kazumi and Lewis.But i very often think about my Nelson.It hurts.I feel like time hasn`t passed.My pain remains the same.Whereever my little man is...i hope is now safe,in God`s hands...Nelson,mummy loves you and misses you so much!We will meet soon!!God bless and protect you!
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